A letter to a friend

I recently wrote a letter to an old friend of mine who has had a major influence on my life. I though it would be beneficial for everyone to read so here it is...
     A long time ago when I was working at the hospital in Tulsa, I became good friend with this girl I worked with.  He name was Lisa and she was in the mid 30's and she was black.  I mention the color of her skin due to the point of this story, so bear with me (I am not racist).  She was a devout christian and wasn't afraid to let people know it. She didn't keep her light under a rock. One day I mentioned that I had always wanted to go to an all black church to experience the "soul power" that white people don't usually have. So one day I went with her to the north side of Tulsa to her church where I was the only white guy there. Needless to say I felt a bit out of place. But once the service started all my anxious thoughts fell away. I was blown away by the soul shaking power that they seemed to possess. I have no idea what the message was about but that isn't the point. I tell you this story because watching that T. D. Jakes video reminded me of that time. His congregation seemed alive and so responsive to what he was saying even though he was more or less talking ill content about them. His words hit me as well like a ton of bricks and its exactly what I needed. 
    It never seems to amaze me how the Holy spirit gets His message to us. Even when we choose not to listen to Him directly He blind sides us from another direction. 
     This happened to me again today by the way of the last Freshlife sermon. In conclusion the pastor was talking about us having the strength to run with horses and this was only accomplishable by strength from the Lord. He also talked about how if we trust on the Lord we can accomplish more amazing things than we can imagine. 
    I mention these things because I didn't trust in Him and as a result I am heading back to Alaska in a month for another fire season. I didn't see how I would make ends meet and how it would have all been possible for me to pursue a career at NOLS. I had doubt in my heart and I don't like that. Its like the man coming to the Lord and saying "I do believe, help me overcome my unbelief" (Mark 9:24). I want to trust in the Lord but at times my unbelief and doubt are stronger. 
   Thank you Husky. I hope and pray that this letter finds you thriving in the majesty or the Himalayan mountains. If you happen to find yourself in Alaska this summer drop a line.